Minggu, 13 November 2016

Kamis, 20 Oktober 2016

Jumat, 07 Oktober 2016

Day 18: Star

everyone wants to be the star, but do they ever think what will happen when a star shines too bright?

Sabtu, 24 September 2016

Surakarta: The Lost Story

They say, first love never dies. For me, it is not that it never dies, but the lesson of first-times lays deeper than any other. And that is all it is.

Minggu, 21 Agustus 2016

Senin, 01 Agustus 2016

Jumat, 29 Juli 2016

All That Matters

For each failure,
 I grow stronger,
I learn more about life and people,
I learn more to love and forgive,
and I understand more about this universe.
It is all that matters.

People can judge me,
People can say anything,
People can think of anything,
And nobody can stop them,
But my own version of myself is all that matters.

I accept what they said.
I accept my mistakes, 
I accept what cannot be undone,
But I am not living in the past,
I live in my present and it's all that matters.

I am not trying to defend myself,
Nor am I trying to change people's judgement,
But I let them see by themselves, what kind of person I am,
It's the most graceful way to prove who I really am,
And it is all that matters.

I am here,
Still the whole me here,
And you know? It is all that matters.

Senin, 25 Juli 2016

Tantangan menjadi ENTP


We value logic first, then feeling second. It is not that we don't have feeling, but we go with what must be done, not what we must feel.

Jumat, 22 Juli 2016

Countdown H - 31

if life is predictable, I would have taken warp to the other side of this universe.


Buat yang merasa countdown diatas adalah *uhuk* countdown yang 'itu' (if you know what I mean) maka maaf ya, anda salah, hahaha :p

H - 31 adalah countdown untuk acara ini wahai saudara:

Senin, 04 Juli 2016

Photograph (Instrumental)

straight to your mind.

There are many-many instrumental version of Ed Sheeran's Photograph, but this one stole my heart right the moment I heard the first note.

Courtesy of Alegretto and Joel Miranda

Kamis, 23 Juni 2016

What the Galaxy Tells Me...

...is that I am walking on the right path,
though I may still restraining myself to take a warp to the other side of Milky Way,
but it tells me,
it tells me that I do it right,
that I should keep doing my part,
and the light will unravel the unseen,

Ya Allah, I pray to you for the steadiness of my feet, clearness of my head and broadness of my heart,
lead me ahead,
do not let me stray again,
because I want to see what You have in store for me,

I promise I'll keep doing my part,
so please, let this wish be fulfilled.

Selasa, 31 Mei 2016

Nobody Knows When the Last Goodbye Is

"It's okay, San, everything is going to be just fine. Just follow your heart. My prayer will always be with you, dear..." (Patrick, today, 31 May 2016, 6.48 pm)

Sabtu, 28 Mei 2016

A Hole to Disappear

is really something I need right now.

I feel a very strong urge to crawl into it, then stay inside, until I understand what it is that I have to do.
But then again, I hate worms, so I don't want a hole located on soil.

I want a hole, there on the cloud, away from the reach of butterfly.
I want to be away for a moment and see the world clearly. See it the way it should be seen.
But then again, I cannot fly, so I cannot get to the sky.

So there, I think I will go to the outerspace and find a blackhole.
I mean, it is a hole!

Thanks for reading, you just saw how distracted I am right now. Congratulations.

Rabu, 25 Mei 2016

A Treasure, Lightyears Away

 There are people in this world whom you treasure so much because of their ability to understand you, regardless how many lightyears are spent with you not seeing each other.

Minggu, 15 Mei 2016

Scary Time

what my friend said to me a while ago:

"You know, you're scary when you really put your mind into something. It's like you turn into steel and cannot be moved. When you are like that, I prefer to have you as an ally,"

what my answer was:

"uh ... ... thanks?" *sweatdropping while many scary images pop up in my head, like an image of me with distinctive red horns and tails, wielding big club-shaped weapon*

I blamed my overreactive imagination for that.

Selasa, 10 Mei 2016

Tales of Tas Kresek

ini bukan kresek yang saya maksud tapi ya sudahlah yang penting maksudnya kresek :p

destiny is such a funny thing, I'll tell you that many many times.

Kamis, 05 Mei 2016

If Only Today I Was Younger...

I have just really realized that every second counts.

28th Remembrance

"some questions are unanswerable no matter how much you think about it, so you can only let time takes its role to answer it," (my brother, 4 May 2016)

"you know, things fated to be yours will be yours, so try, but don't gamble," (my mother, 2016)

"maybe you will forget what you're saying, but some people will forever be saved by that," (my father, 2015)

"I believe the time when you find all those answers is not far, you just need to believe in it," (my workmate, 31 December 2015)

"we love your determination, for never giving up no matter how many times you fail, it inspires me, it inspires us," (my workmate, 2016)

"there is no absolute right answer in this world, we are opt to make mistake every now and then, so the most important thing is what you will do after that," ('patrick', 2014)

"it's funny, I was crying when you were hurt, because I could imagine how painful you must feel, but there you endured it and consoled me instead. I don't know whether you are very strong or simply ignoring your feeling, but anytime you do need someone, I will be there," (my workmate, 2014)

"it is better to believe and try then fail, rather than regretting myself for doing nothing," (siennra, 2012)

"some things will turn out differently, but you will be alright, I bet on it," (my coass-soulmate, 2011)

"no matter how big your question is, just remember that there is a bigger, much bigger, entity in this universe who can help you find the answer, so, you can always asks Him, anytime," ('krab', 2009)

"you should learn not to be so hard on yourself. you're strong, and we love you for it, but will you ever trust us to see your weakness too?" ('squidward', 2009)

"why couldn't you believe in yourself more? you can easily win many things, you know?" ('spongebob', 2010)

I feel blessed, and that is enough to move me to tears :')

Selasa, 26 April 2016

My Extraordinary but Underestimated Bacteria


One day, I lost count of how many people saying that I need to go back to mainstream to end a period of my life. My question is: what is 'mainstream'?

Note: this is just another rambling. Do not bother to read when you have any other more important thing to do.

Minggu, 28 Februari 2016

Snow White with the Red Hair - Review

"if there is any 'princess' story that makes me feel envious by watching it, then this must be the one and only,"

Kamis, 25 Februari 2016

Welcome Back, Happy!

is something I happily stated for countless times ever since I let out a big heave this afternoon.

Sabtu, 02 Januari 2016