Kamis, 24 Juni 2010

Post Exam Syndrome?!

At the time when all exams are gone for a while, right after enormous struggling weeks, what are we supposed to do?

Yep, time to refresh our mind!!!

But somehow -I don’t know why, even I have no idea why this thing may exist- there’s something I called post exam syndrome:

There goes when I suddenly awake from my sleep, take a look harshly at the clock, worrying about “Hey!! I haven’t study for the exam!!” before I realize how stupid I am at that time.

Another moment, in the joyful playing-game-time suddenly I am surprised by how late it is by staring at the clock with no blink, blaming myself for spending so many time to play when I should prepare myself for the exam, and soon I laugh at myself for being so silly.

Those happened so many times since the last day of exam anyway...

OMG!! The exams have ALREADY DONE!!!!
I can’t believe I must concern myself over and over for it!

I have done anything to refresh my mind. I have tried to give my brain a break since it has yelled me to stop since three weeks ago. At that time I forced myself -my brain- to think that it had not over yet, that I still had so many exams to do.

Then this unintended term came! I still laugh at myself for being so stuck on exams!!

Actually soon after that last exam I let myself drowning inside my hobbies. I played keyboards, I learned new songs, I drew new objects and people, I listened to my favorite music, I went out of the city, I continued my suspended games even started virtual pets, I wrote my dreams –just like what I used to do to test my precognitive side ^ ^-, I wrote new stories, and else and else and else... but it seems I’m still stuck thinking about “What’s the next exam?! Have I prepared myself?!”

Okay, normal students won’t do that –everyone likes holidays- ... and trust me, this is my first time for being like this!!

Some people said I was too stressful along the exam weeks, so that’s why I can’t cut it off in a sudden. Maybe that’s right, but I don’t really think that it’s 100% true because I don’t have that habit... I almost never think so serious about life, I like to let it flows and watch it carefully. Or maybe I have been too careful so it comes to a dead end and I can’t find the way out...

Supposed to be like that...

Argh!! Whatever!!!
I just hope to find a way to relieve my mind SOON... It’s exhausting!!

Thinking about “why did I write this in English?”
How can I do that?
That’s because my brain hasn’t stop thinking yet!!! It’s still forced me wandering around!!
But trust me...

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I am Enneagram type 7 with ENTP, highly imaginative, lots of flight of ideas, yield many hobbies and skills, and unsurprisingly extraordinary. Yes, why do people even bother to define themselves as ordinary while every soul is downright created as extraordinary? :p