Sabtu, 15 Juli 2017

The Moment of Truth


July is the month of conclusion.


These two weeks meant so much to me.
From unraveling the almost-unbearable truth, all the way to being hospitalized.

God probably sent me to the hospital to let me sort my mind out.
Because I was simply unable to think straight just like usual.
Because I was simply annoyed by the very simple words from others.

Because basically, I was not as composed as I'd like to show the world.

Ah... how did I fail to comprehend? How could I let it slip between my fingers?
How could I become so defenseless?
Now that I think about it, I should have cast the most powerful spell and incinerate it all before it burned me.
Yet, I hesitated.
I ignored my first revelation and went blindly.
And rushed to the wall.
Slammed my head on the process.

Haha, how silly.
I didn't die though I suffered the damage a great deal.

Then, I guess God wrapped me up somewhere far to let me calm down.

I wonder, after being desolated from the world for a week, how does this world fare?
Has this world patch itself up?
I didn't even surprised to find myself being distracted after the critical time passed by.
Yet, I found myself surprisingly holding up well.
My mind went to remember things I wish I forgot, but I didn't feel anything painful.

I reached the conclusion that I will let this world decide what it wants to do for me.

I know, with me being hospitalized, some people would definitely said that it was a pity, being curled up as patient whereas others were having happy party.
I realize it that much.
Some of them will continue pitying me.

But then again,
I come this far by ignoring most people I met along the way and I keep pressing through the goals.
Now that I have one less luggage to carry on, I can concentrate to leap upward and reach more stars.
No matter how hard it may seem to others, if I have survived it the first time, then I will survive again this time.
And I'll definitely grow up to be someone braver and more formidable.
Not because I want to show the world.
Not because I want to get some revenge.
But because now, as I stand on the path cleared of fog, I see it all.
I see all the possibilities ahead of me.
All the things, good things, waiting to be reached.

One day, I'll look back to who I am today and be proud of myself.

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I am Enneagram type 7 with ENTP, highly imaginative, lots of flight of ideas, yield many hobbies and skills, and unsurprisingly extraordinary. Yes, why do people even bother to define themselves as ordinary while every soul is downright created as extraordinary? :p